more decisions

I don't know what i have decided. It's difficult when i feel my heart's torn in every direction possible.

what i know:

I love E.W.S. it is for them i look forward to each school day. I love the way they crack me up and the way we talk like we've known each other since forever. I love the way we laugh and eat. I love the way we sing and share. I love the way we praise Jesus. I can only thank Him for giving me such wonderful, beautiful, amazing, inspiring, loving, warm, (insert superlative) friends.I feel happy that they did well for Os and that they can go to wherever they want to go, but i want us to be together still. I feel selfish for wanting them to stay with me. It's difficult to let go when i know something like this doesn't come easily.

I don't know why God gives then takes it back.