Liz: what are your dreams Jac?

I’d dream I’d be a dancer,
And mingle with the rock stars.
I wished I’d be an astronaut
And land on planet Mars

I remember fondly,
An atlas I once received
From then on- an Explorer!
Was the dream I conceived.

I dream to put my finger into
The San Andreas Fault.
Be like Anthony Bourdain,
And eat legendary food hot.

To sweat it out in a
Japanese hot spring
and to scale the
Great wall in City Beijing

I’m not quite sure what
My dreams are anymore
I’ve thought honestly about them
Till I’ve gone all sore

But I think God had
Other dreams for me
Right now, to ‘scale’ the
White walls of NCC.

again

hi hi
it's so funny because i just checked my yahoo mail and i have 754 emails. mostly from grandma. mostly ppts with flowers and inspirations messages on them. i don't really like reading those..it's really.. well for the lack of better words phoney. haha! just like Holden in The Catcher in the Rye. I still don't quite get that book but for what it's worth it was pretty good in a sense that I didn't want to put it down. ho hum. And it wasn't like i had nothing else better to do. What can one one in the hospital anyway. Rhetorical question.

maybe

Maybe I should start blogging properly again.

well, maybe, now that I'm free. ok. Actually i'm not that free. I have a plan. yes. a plan when i get back home to fill my every hour with something productive to do, like say study. loads and loads of catching up to do. loads. i don't even know where to begin. i mean, seriously. missing out on one and a half months of school is no joke.

but no i'm not going to kill myself and study myself to death. i will take it slow. first. yepp. so back to the plan. it's simple really, it consist of simple daily tasks like brushing teeth, breakfast and the works, plus a little bit of reading, reflection, studying, poetry and praying. and that way i'll be so occupied that i won't have time to think about what ifs(: i'm a genius.

this is silly. i feel like i'm talking to myself.again.

hmm it's been long and now i'm free and bored

here's what i posted at 36's blog!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

greetings from SGH ward 78 room 7(:

hmm finally managed to get my laptop in, but the wireless connection here isn't fantastic so.. yes, i get kicked out every few minutes or something. not cool.anyway,hmm yea looks like this week is finally coming to an end huh, by the time i'm discharged (staurday!) i would have been in and out of hospital for about one and a half months..whoa or what. Anyway yesterday's chemo experience was salvaged by the one and only best television series: GREY'S ANATOMY! hee. it was quite funny la, while the nurse was setting up the machine thingy, i was setting up my laptop and preparing my 'so called' battle front with snacks and snapple pink lemonade (lastest weird craving) on one side, the mags and books.i told the nurse to tell me when she pressed the start button so i could press start together with her. so yea timing was prefect (well almost, the machine had a few hiccups here and there) and for the whole chemo duration i watched 3 episodes of grey's(((((: BUT THEN. GUESS WHAT

after the whole 3 hours i thought it was over but NOoooo... the nurse brought in this new set of drugs... so basically now i'm stuck with a 'gameboy' sized machine with a thin tube pumping in this orange coloured drug into my chest for... (get this) 72 hours.uh huh. 3 days. 72 hours, 3 days. i wonder which one sounds nicer. why 72 hours? it's suppose to be less harsh for the body because technically chemo drugs are posion, on the machine label it actually says tonxins,this slow process wont scare/shock the body so much unless it was given say about 3 hours.so hopfully i wont feel so sicky after eveything, if not doctor poon owes me spaghetti. we made a bet. he said if i throw up he'll buy me spaghetti from sheraton towers. kind of a tough situation huh... should i throw up?

i hope that entertained you for a bit(:


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hello

hello hello blog test one two three. testing. one two three.

I can't smell, taste and hear properly. this is not cool.

the aftermath

I feel like i'm living two weeks behind time. I keep thinking there'll be school tmr.ergh.

pre u sem then DE.

It's been a hell of two weeks. A truck load of laundry is waiting for me to attack it.

I feel like i'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms for everything. ok fine, mostly pre u sem. I really miss sitting in the MASSIVE Nanyang audi during parallel presentations, listening to interesting and not-so-interesting speakers, while cracking jokes and making bets. I think when i grow up to become some big shot, i want to speak to pre u sem participants. I want to re-live those five amazing days again. Well, minus the waking up at 5 something in the morning; that i can definitely do without. I miss the people the most. It was difficult for me at DE because my heart was still at NTU. Pa says NTU has brainwashed me. ah well, we'll wait two more years and see.

The first thing i think of when people ask me what i've learnt during pre u sem: BRIDGE.

Hoho. so much for intelligent discussion concerning Singapore's economic growth. Benji says i've got beginner's luck. teehee.

well, actually i feel very enlightened. And I understand my country better. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't propaganda or anything close to that, it was more than that.

I won't forget the staying up late. I won't forget editing ebook. I won't forget the NEWater water wally. I forget the 293 pictures we took. I won't forget dancing at the Istana. I won't forget the bus rides. I won't forget tea receptions and fruit tarts, painful court shoes, the broken ones, stairs, diluted soya bean milk and SG 15((:

They are a GREAT bunch of people and I feel extremely blessed to have met them.

Anyway,I have a huge wade of lecture notes to face and overdue tutorials. COMMON TESTS. ew ew ew. Nic's in bloody Europe. I don't get to go for my uncle's wedding because of make up lectures. I don't even know if i can meet up with jEWS this hols. homework homework homework.

REAILTY BITES.