somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond

Thursday, March 29, 2007

HOPE

...those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah40:31

I spoke to Jalene today and it was truly inspiring. It's been so long since I felt I could open up to someone, especially since those blissful ij days, since EWS, since since since..

Our conversation made me think alot, think about school, about life, about family and about passion.

Passion drives us, motivates us, moves us into demisions we fail to comprehend.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

understudy

As march holiday homework for gp we were suppose create a blog.

This was my first post:

Most people generally mispronounce my name. I can't blame them really, Jaclyn isn't the traditional or should I say, a more common way of spelling my name.

So this is what usually happens:

Person X (after quizzically staring at my name for a few seconds): 'jeSS'-lyn huh? Interesting name…

Person X then proceeds to grin, looking positively pleased with himself/herself for managing to decipher the complexity of pronouncing strangely spelled names.

I: It’s 'JACK'-lyn actually…

Person X (looking rather sheepish and apologetic): I'm sorry; I thought it was spelled as 'Jacqueline'? And it’s just that doesn’t the ‘c’ in the middle contribute to the‘s’ sound?

This explanation appears odd but I suppose it makes some sense although I have yet to figure it out.

I: Well, I don’t know… It’s just the way my parents wanted it to be.

Person X then nods. Sometimes I think it may be out of sympathy.

I: You can call me ‘Jac’, most people do.

It is here I must admit that the ability to not look or feel annoyed comes with years of experience for one cannot deny that having people mispronounce your name repeatedly can get pretty exasperating, but of course after having heard the reason behind each person’s way of pronunciation does make me more understanding. Do not get me wrong, it is not as if I dislike my name and wish I was named ‘abc’ or ‘xyz’. The point I am trying to drive at is that ‘strangely’ spelled names are not such a bad thing; it’s unique and people remember you for it. Recognition is what we want isn’t it? In this society of a rat race we are all running to win? Anyway, if anything I am thankful for having my name spelled the way it is. Because it is a really good conversation starter.

It is a challenge to stand out in a society like Singapore’s; especially with an education system like ours. This evidently is a whole other concern about elitism which is undeniably present in today’s context. But one must want to stand out to indeed stand out. And being excellent under the minimum requirements is simply not enough. Hence why I say we are all running to win the same rat race.

Anyway I shall move on to properly introduce myself.

I am Jaclyn Alexandra Chong and I will be 17 in October.
I have been and hopefully with God’s grace, will continue to be blessed with many things in life, including a loving family, a caring set of friends and a healthy mind and body.
I love to talk, babble and ramble on about everything and anything under our beautiful sun.
I dislike feeling like I have been taken for granted.
I live to eat.
I have a fixation with shoes, one can never have too many.
I wish I was musically inclined.
I happen to give advice quite effectively.
I have always wanted to eat ice cream and only ice cream for a day.
I want to be a journalist, social worker, children’s author, television host, actress, storyteller, lawyer, speech therapist, counselor and I have a feeling the list may continue to expand.
I cannot, for the life of me, draw, but I did get a distinction for art in Secondary two (It was abstract art. Explains it all, doesn’t it?).
I cannot stand cold soup.
I am a dreamer.
I think I am a do-er.
I tend to get overly ambitious.
I tell people to stop waffling only to do so myself.
I believe in the ‘law of compensation’, a theory I have been trying to develop.
I write poetry.
I adore Sylvia Plath’s works.
I am proud of my up-side down six.
I have never had a hand at commentary blogging before so this experience is definitely new to me and I suppose I will be brave and boldly state that it will not be much of a difference as compared to ‘normal’ blogging (what is ‘normal’ in this world anyway?). The difference being, our aired views would concern local and global issues. This ultimately will be what we would have to do for any GP essay anyway so no objections here.

I sat up till 1am to do the above. It felt really relaxing actually. Maybe this whole gp blogging thing wouldn't be so bad after all((:

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

lalala

I watched The Pianist again yesterday. It was very sad. sad. sad. sad.

Had another Pre-U sem meeting today, having another one tomorrow.

I should not be at home right now.

I am swimming in my school blouse.

I still have math homework to complete.

I hate functions.

Fell asleep and didn't go for mass.

I must say, it's a nice day.

Friday, March 9, 2007

morrow.

I was late for today's Pre-U sem meeting. I was in the car with papa and we were just at the traffic light, turning into ang mo kio avenue six when Isaac called, " where for art thou Jaclyn?". He did mention he was born into the wrong era. I didn't tell him I agreed with him. His odd enquiry did make me think about Shakespeare in love and how Ms Williams allowed the class to munch on snacks while watching. I do miss her so. I hope i get her as my pdg tutor again.

JULIET
A thousand times good night!
ROMEO
A thousand times the worse, to want thy light. Love goes toward love, as schoolboys from their books, But love from love, toward school with heavy looks.

It was so hilarious watching that movie with dearest sb sitting beside me, every time Shakespeare and Viola would get intimate she would squeal and cover her eyes. Wen and I would smile and grin at each other. I really do miss EWS alot. It's like an ache inside i cannot nurse, an itch i falter to scratch. On Friday, og27 was playing the most ridiculous game invented "did you know?" (who can blame them for being so annoying unenthusiastic?) and Keet had just informed me that P was appealing back to cj, therefore Zhiyan's absence. I nodded in silence. I looked towards 27, Keet shook her head and gave a pained look; the one we shared when discussing our beloved responsibility. "I don't blame her for appealing" I stated. It was then i felt so sad. so overwhelmed by sadness. It was just so utterly pathetic.

I left the classroom crying. Keet accompanied me. It really affected her too. I think she felt as alone as I was, friends leaving, people you appreciate leaving, people who appreciate you leaving... I really really miss EWS.

JULIET
Sweet, so would I:
Yet I should kill thee with much cherishing.
Good night, good night! parting is such
sweet sorrow,
That I shall say good night till it be morrow.

the town that you live in

Why do I have so many things to do?

I just organised my March holiday schedule and I realised I have no time what so ever for myself. Damnit. I have Pre-U sem meetings on Wednesday and Friday and some photojouralism talk on thursday, on top of that I have three math tutorials to complete, two math assessments and two sets of econs lecture notes to read through. I'm so screwed. So much for slacking and watching dvds. But I suppose I asked for it. oh yea speaking of Pre-U sem Su xin just texted me: Jaclyn!! if you check the pre-u sem thing, the complusory meeting is on the 12th of may. And our public perfromance is on the 11th and 12th of may.

oh crap.

How now brown cow?

this has totally disrupted my blogging mood.

Saturday, March 3, 2007

it doesn't matter really

JL: a part of me wants it to stay the same, or at least the way it used to be

JS: Change is the only constant right?

JL: God's our constant too!

JS: yea and that's why science is flawed

JL: and we're smart enough not to take it((:


(*this conversation has been modified pior posting)